Ghosts from the Past

Ghosts from the Past

I know the days keep on passing
I’m still marooned in the past
You were my food and my water
My shelter was within your arms.

Alone on this deserted island.
My dreams washed away by the tide
My heart’s unyielding desire
Anxiously waiting for rescue to arrive

All hope of being rescued is fading
There’s nothing that’ll bring the boat back
How can I …without you …keep on going
When I’m not longer whole …only half
One half you’ve taken with you…The other half is trying to survive.

Loving words still ring clear in my ears
I refuse to believe they were lies
I believe,  the ghosts from your past are the reason
You have chosen to walk out of my life.

I wish I knew the secret …of how to erase you from my mind.
I think of you everyday …and dream of you every night .
What have I done to deserve this .A curse that have changed my life
I’m now being haunted by ghosts …
For you have become … the ghost from my past

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  1. Words from your heart, nmod. We all have ghosts from our past that are difficult to shake off. But realize that you didn’t deserve what happened, it is the way of life, unpredictable and unreliable.
    Those ghosts belong in your past, not your present, and they are not welcome in your future.
    Baby steps nmod. Try not to think too hard on the future at this point. Think of the pleasures (no matter how small) of today.
    It will get easier.
    ((((hugs))))

  2. Nmod. Such a good statement of a lost love. The suffering must be so awful. I am sorry if it is true and about you. Bury the loss and try to have as wonderful life as possible even though you may be empty inside and joyless. Crowd out the pain with a new life full of good and fun things.

  3. I read your sorrow
    I guess I can understand
    The hate you have for one man
    But that’s not what life is about
    When you hate, piss-off and shout
    Show him what he has no clue
    Of a lady with love, pride and someone to come home too..
    Lou.. if you feel this is out line,, delete it..

  4. All the above statements are good practical advice………..but back to the heart versus the head……..the head listens, the heart does not……..takes one hell of a long time to get over someone who has pierced your heart………….and now i am going to finish this reply in a jokey fashion nmod………hope it makes you smile……..
    .” The best way over one man, is under another “..ooops..lol …Much love to you nmod..xxx

    1. It did make me smile Star ! I wish it was that easy though ! When you have given your all to the person you love and yet that’s not enough ..it leaves you wondering if it’s worth going through that all over again !
      Thank you for your comments 🙂 🙂

      1. Hurt’s like hell dosent it………….but love is a risk……….dosent mean it will happen again………..don’t waste time staring at the door that has closed……would hate you to miss one that may open…..xxx

        1. “don’t waste time staring at the door that has closed……would hate you to miss one that may open ” . What an enlightening statement ! It made me realize that I may have my foot stuck between the door and the frame preventing it to close . Holding on to the thinnest thread of hope that things may turn around ! Knowing too well that even if things do turn around it wouldn’t change the reality that the relationship was and still would be toxic ! With extreme highs and lows …but lately much more pain than joy . Thank you ! I just hope I may be able to work through it and free myself from my own chains .

          1. nmod, i was in a relationship similar to your’s many moons ago……….high’s low’s,……..relationship on and off …three times he asked me to marry him, even after he had married for a second time, i knew it wouldn’t have worked, was built on jealousy and passion……..but he did say, whatever happens to us in the future, there will always be a part of you in my heart, every few years we come across each other in passing……..we always have someone with us, just as well, the heart still skips a beat, a knowing smile…..ahh well.

  5. Enjoyed reading your poem, you did a great job of sharing your feelings. I understand the ghost from the past. I am realizing that I have been living a good part of my life by looking in the rear view mirror more than what lies ahead of me. We learn from those who have passed through our lives. We hope that we can move on to learn from others…especially if they help us fade some of the rear view mirror memories that weren’t so good. It takes time. Writing your poem is helping you share some of the pain so you don’t have to carry it around with you. Polar..go ahead and share your writing. Nmod can be your mentor.

    1. The best way to deal with the ghosts from the past …is facing them ! And that’s what I’m trying to do …I’m fighting real hard ! And you are right writing helps to unload …and reading the comments kind of helps to see things clearer …thank you for your comments Linda xx