a bit of an intro

i am looking for a place to have actual respectful conversations with people.  

fresh from a divorce after a long marriage, i’ve lived the last year like a hermit, and am finally feeling a bit of desire to interact a little bit again, but wanting to take it slow.  i’m not interested in anything romantic, but i do miss connections in terms of sharing bits of life and days.  i’ve tried a couple of other sites that claim to offer chat, but frankly it’s been frightening!  i think people don’t remember how to actually conversate, and those sites have seemed more like meat markets(pardon the term), than anything else.  some of the opening lines from people are enough to make me turn and run, lol.

i’m 58 years old, with four grown children and four grandbabies…a fifth on the way.  i am an avid yoga lover (mostly power yoga, but love vinyasa flows as well), and i work with free weights several times a week as well.  health is very important to me, after a bout with covid three years ago that landed me in the hospital.  i thought i was going to die, and it made me realize how much i wanted to live.  i’ve changed in uprooted my life in many ways since then…and tho i can’t say that i’ve figured out the “living” part yet, i can say that i’m definitely on some sort of slow journey towards it.  my hope is to find a “me” that’s become lost and buried over many years of being what others needed and wanted me to be.  no regrets…i just wish i’d figured out a better balance and learned to hold onto myself as well, because once i found myself alone…i realized i really had no clue who i was or what i wanted.  i think it would be a shame to die without really knowing who “I” am.  seems silly to say that i’m LOST at this age, but it’s so very true.

i also write alot…journals, poetry, two books in the works.  i’ve always loved the beauty of words and the magic of capturing them just right in way that can affect another person.  and i love photography…i’m no pro, but i’ve ALWAYS been drawn to moments where “light and shadows” create a picture that is fleeting and completely gone just seconds after taking the picture.  

anyway, i think i’m just beginning to come out of the hermit shell i’ve been in, and i hope this place offers something different than other sites i’ve tried.  i’d love to meet people and share a bit of life and our days.