i am not big on words but 1would like to put my feelings forward. i am now on my own after 44 year wed 2 year courting ( yes we used to do that ) totaling 46 and i find that i feel i am playing a waiting game, i do not go out other than for shopping and life is so lonely i am not a mixer so please that i not an answer. its the little things i miss most much now i miss the cuddles,touches, reply s at you get from a partner i get to thinking that there is something wrong with me i ask myself why me what have i done. you would think that being wed so long i would have my sues brothers & sisters calling on me not so since i lost my sue ( my life) i dont get them calling on me which confirms what i said to her when we were as i i do not matter its you and i would get mad that they ( the family ) would drive by our house and not call in to see her i would be in the front garden and see them go by and i would come in and tell her we did not have any family so we did not have any sons or daughters and i think that is what hurt most now as i say i am on my own i pine contact vertual reality is ok but like i say its the contact this issing and i beleave that is a big issue for me to cope with and i am struggling with it................. what do you think ????
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