The Path of Life
Wrote this when I first started writing on here .reread it today thought I would repost it,as some of you might like to think about it.
One day as I walked along the corridors of this chatters site I came to a cold and windy area,...My mind started thinking over my life how as a kid I thought it would be...,as we in the later part of our lives often do ..I moved around the corner and sat on a seat. My legs not being what they once were....Had my life turned out as I had wanted it to be?...was I happy in the things that I had done ......were there things I would do differently .....are there things I am still going to do?......all these ran through my mind.
My imagination had given me a different life when I was young.... handsome man ,marriage kids and love ....happy ever after......Oh everything was going to be good. Alas things don”t turn out like that my Mum used to say.....“Man proposes and God dispossess.....how true.Yes I had my share of the good as well as the bad......never really thought I shouldn’t get bad as well as others.
Along cane a happy soul sat on the seat beside me ,he started chatting about the weather as we do,then started to ask me questions,...... were I came from things about myself I started to answer,.. he then asked me if I was happy here on this cold seat. Of course why wouldn’t I be happy here? he just said well there is a warm spot over in that place ,pointing into the distance.......then got off and walked away.
I started to think of the unjusticeses in life......I though of all those girls that had had babies back in the sixties .....and the orphanage where I worked ,the many girls who never got to see their babies ,because they were taken away as soon as they were born. as they believed it was the right thing to do. ,who believed that girls shouldn’t keep them if not married.I wondered if I should have been more caring and thoughtful towards them.Let more of them see the baby that was going up for adoption,but at 18 or so I was not as good as I am now at bucking the system if I thought it was wrong .I did go to pick them up from the hospital and let them nurse the baby if they wanted,against strong orders not to let them see the baby,now I tell; you in a taxi with the mother how could you not let her see the baby.I let her carry it .
While sitting thinking a couple of ladies sat down chatting away telling me of their shopping, the things they bought and the bargains they got.......invited me to come for coffee over in that other direction, as it was to cold on this seat .They ambled off as I said i was content here thanks . A gentleman sat down heaved a sigh and lit a smoke.I asked wasn’t he worried about smoking now ,he looked at me and said,
“At our age don”t you think we can do as we want.” Then got up and walked off.
I wondered why can”t we do as we want, we have spent our lives doing as others wanted ,......yes too right we can do as we want.
So we cant really do as we like as others live in this world and rely on us all the time, if we get to involved in our own wishers others get hurt, so its part of the way we have to live ,,,,,,think of others .A man came along told me he was unhappy his wife didn't understand him,he was very afraid he was going to do something he wouldn't be proud of.You want to come have a drink with me over there ,.....pointing to the place in the distance.....After saying no not a good idea he went off in that direction.
I sat thinking where in my life I thought I was along the lines of the one I had imagined it would be .Had I gone down the right paths or had I drifted off to the place that was over there in the distance .....I hoped I was here doing things that made my life worthwhile .I hoped I hadn’t hurt people by my going down the path I followed.
There were many times I was tempted and went the wrong way ,but hope I am back on the right path now.
Where are you on this path?????