Thinking of you

An open letter to a special friend ….

Today it’s an important day of remembrance for you and your family … My love and thoughts are with You .
It’s been 5 years since you’ve lost her , and I guess memories are still fresh in your mind ,and in your heart .

I’m trying to recall my loss all those years ago , it’s been almost 23 years for me . I think back all these years and wonder if I would have made anything differently .
On Saturday at my son’s wedding , he delivered an emotional speech where he talked about his father and how he was his hero ! He also spoke beautifully about me as his mother thanking me for raising him and his brother on my own , for teaching them to love and respect others ,to be honest , to work hard and to enjoy life .
He had many guests with tears welling up in their eyes ,
He also said ” Mum I know you have made some sacrifices to give me a wonderful start in life ” for that I thank you , I’m proud of you being my mum ” .

The sacrifices I’ve made were mainly on my emotional life . After my husband died I’ve made a conscious decision not to date anyone while they were growing up … I wanted to focus on us three as a family and I worked hard to keep life as normal as possible … Of that I have no regrets.
Years went by , my sons are now adults ,and I …well I’m still alone .

I know you’ve been doing the same …trying to keep things as they were .
Life is like a roller coaster ride , there are ups and downs ,twists and turns
Somehow the journey seems easier when someone rides by our side …
It’s not easy going alone….
Life is what life is but it can be Beautiful ,
Warm heartfelt wishes to you today and always .
Love Norma