The Night I Said Goodbye To Luke

Your mother has come for you Luke I have to let you go with her. I don’t want to but there is nothing I can do to stop her. I will always love you, thinking about you leaving hurts deep in my heart. You were my little boy for almost three years. No longer will I hear you yelling “Mama, Mama it me, “so eager to tell me about your day. No longer will you be watching out your bedroom window for Nicole to come home from work. You would run as fast as your little legs would go yelling, “Mama, Mama Cole home “, as you opened the front door, “Cole, Cole give kiss, big kiss”. Then you grabbed her purse and hauled it back to her bedroom. When I was sad or upset you would climb up and sit on the table in front of me looking at my face very carefully then you cupped my face with your little hand and said “It be ok Mama, it be ok Mama,” you kissed my face and gave me your love hug,” it will be ok, you all better”. I told you everything was ok and thanked you for caring. You said “It will be ok, you all better”, and gave me one more love hug. Then you climb down and you were off to play. I will miss that a lot. We said goodbye the same way we said hello. I wrapped my arms around you and told you” I love you, goodbye my sweet angel. Pain ripped across my heart as you turned to say “bye Mama”. It was when time stopped that our eyes locked and I knew you would never be my little boy again. You ran back to me and gave me a love hug. I bent down and whispered in your beautiful little ear how sorry I was that I didn’t keep my promise. You said” it ok Mama”. Then you ask me if I loved you still”. With tears flowing down my face I told you from here to the moon and back. I told you how special you were. You told me ” ya I special Mama I love you to” then you kiss me goodbye. I watched walk down the stairs you turned and said “I be careful Mama. I love you to moon too”. That was the night I said goodbye to Luke. The songs we sang together make me sad now. The movies that we both liked are dust in the wind. Things that gave me joy fill me with pain. Luke you were much of my life and I find it hard to breathe now. I hope someday it won’t hurt so much .Some nights I can see Luke walking away and me waving goodbye saying “I love you. Stay safe “. No longer does he know. I will love you from here to the moon and back.