second wind dying down

well, the week was spent both getting ready for my daughters baby shower, and also taking apart the guest room i had set up in her room, so that she could be moved back in.  it was a busy week!

yesterday was the baby shower, and my heart was filled with joy to see how many people showed up for her, outside of our family.  it’s such a beautiful thing to see other people love you children…if that makes any sense.  some people even flew here from another state to be at her shower.  it was a good afternoon, and she received wonderful gifts.  i don’t think there is much more we need to be ready for the baby now….she’s pretty set with the neccessities and beyond.

and today we moved her back into my house.  it was a hot sweaty venture, being almost 100 degrees here today, but it’s done, and she’s now out to dinner with the friends that flew in for her.  i had all my weeks worth of cooking to still get done after the moving, so it’s been busy. but i just got out of the shower, and was walking thru the house to see if anything else needed to be done before i finally relax for the evening, and when i walked into her room, i just felt so….happy…to see her all moved back in.  she’s home.  and i look very forward to this next adventure with her and my new grandbaby.

there are only 9 weeks left until the baby is due…i can’t believe how fast it’s gone.  this was a shock of a pregnancy, from the daughter who said she never wanted children.  and it had a rough start as the father of the baby wanted nothing to do with any of it, so she dealt with heartbreak as well as the adjustment to something she hadn’t expected.  but over the months of her pregnancy, i have watched her fall in love with her daughter and it’s been such a beautiful thing to witness. i firmly believe she’s going to be a wonderful mother.  

this week will be spent, helping her get things unpacked and organized.  each nite when we both get home from work, we’ll try to tackle a thing or two.  and when she’s all unpacked, we’ll be building the crib…just her and i, and i’m actually excited to see that crib go up.  

other things in terri-land….

still dealing with the heartache regarding my other two daughters, but something occurred to me this week that just mite have made it possible for me to move forward a little bit, instead of staying stuck in the pain and waiting for things to be okay.  we’ll see, i guess.  i won’t go into what occurred to me, but it made me realize that i just deserve so much better than they are treating me….and i just don’t want to be a dog begging for scraps anymore.  i deserve better.  i’m not sure it will ever not hurt….but i’m not waiting anymore.  this limbo has been awful.  its time to focus on my present moments, and maybe even try to make some future plans for myself.  nothing big…just some goals to look forward to.

i get a more than decent raise at work this week, and that’s a nice thing, of course.  the cool thing about that is that i KNOW i earned it…i KNOW i deserve it.  it feels nice to work your butt off everyday, doing something you actually enjoy…and still get compensated for it.

i still can’t decide if i want to upgrade here on this site.  i’ve had such bad experiences in the past, putting money anywhere on a website, so i’m very hesitant and not sure what to trust.  but i do miss being able to read the notifications that i can see are there.  and i was really enjoying the bits of communication here.  still thinking about it.

i’m VERY tired.  it’s been a whirlwind of two weeks, non stop! and the second wind is finally dying down.  the BUSY is over.  now it’s all about hunkering down and getting ready for a baby.  nesting.  hard to explain…but i love it.  i AM tired tho!  it’s still daylight out, but i’m thinking of taking myself to bed and turning on the tv, just to completely relax for the first time in a few weeks.  my heavy eyelids are convincing me further, lol.

off i go…