REFLECTION

I've had a sh.t of a life - so many kicks in the guts but I am still here. I recently had to put my beautiful little dog down after 13+ years with her. She got me through one of the worst times of my life, and I will grieve for her forever. She truly was a little angel.
As one gets older one starts to reflect on one's life. The things we have done and not done, the mistakes we have made - and I have made some doosies (not sure of the spelling but hey who cares!), the paths life has led us along, the people who have influenced these paths - good and bad, but mainly bad in my case.
Not having to care for my little darling I have been reflecting a lot on my life. A friend of mine once told me that her father said to her, at the end of his life, if you can count on one hand how many good friends you have made in life, then you have truly been blessed.
Well, I can count on more than both hands how many wonderful friends I have had in my life. I have friends going back to my childhood whom I know, and who have recently, been there for me during this grieving time. I felt lonely and alone without her, but receiving comfort and love from my dear friends has made me realize that I am not alone, that I am a good person and a lot of people love and care for me.
This has also been shown to me by my many friends on SC who have sent me wonderful emails and posts. Senior Chat friends really don't know us in the sense of the "real world" but hearts can reach out any where. I have always believed in angels, and this reflection has made me realize that I am surrounded by them in real time and in cyber time. So I have truly been blessed in my life, not with material things, but with true and sincere love and friendship, and I can go to my grave knowing that my heart has reached so many and other hearts have welcomed me into their hearts.
I have been truly blessed. Thank you.
God bless you all.
Thank you Rob for this wonderful site.
Love and hugs
Foreveryoung2 xoxox

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  1. skippy

    Dearest forever, you are one of the most beautiful people i have been lucky enough to meet in cyberspace, regard you as my sister. My heart goes out to you in the loss of your darling Phebe, no words can express what I want to say, ((((((((((hugs)))))))).

    You are still here my friend having gone through so much in your life, and still so valuable to your friends who love you, I appreciate you so much, much love, skips xxxxxxxxx

  2. katelin

    Oh, Forever… I’m sending you lots of love and lots of hugs, sweetheart. You have indeed been through so much in your life, and I know this is the absolute most difficult time ever, without your precious little Phoebe. I know how much love, joy, and comfort she brought to you… and in return, you gave her such a beautiful life, and so much love. You are a beautiful person, inside and out, Forever. You’re such a treasured friend/sister to me, also. I keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Much love to you, dear Forever. … xoxox Kate

  3. Lina

    Beautiful lady – I echo what Skippy has said and I too consider myself very fortunate to have you for a friend…..you know how I feel over your loss and I am so proud of you that you are gradually getting back on your feet again – you will overcome the problems that still face you love – I have every faith in you….(((((((((((((((LOTSA HUGS))))))))))))))) Lina xxx

  4. PollyPie

    Hi Forever ((((hugs)))) Have you heard of the Rainbow Bridge?

    Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
    When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
    There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
    There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
    All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigour.
    Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
    The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

    They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance.
    Her bright eyes are intent.
    Her eager body quivers.
    Suddenly she begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, her legs carrying her faster and faster.

    You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again.
    The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

    Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….

    1. foreveryoung2 Post author

      Yes I have PollyPie – thank you for posting it. She was the daughter I never had and I am looking forward to crossing Rainbow Bridge. I hope things are getting better for you – I am always here if needed xox

    2. Blush

      I have never heard about this before, it brought a tear to my eye. Does this mean that maybe, just maybe, I might see my pal again? Ohhhhh… how my heart soars.

  5. Maize

    Forever, I do know what you are feeling. I’ve had an ‘up and down life’ and learned to stand on my own feet. At a specially bad time, I was very close to just giving up,and two animals gave me a reason to keep going. I believe in an afterlife and know that I’ll see everyone who means a lot to me again…..and that includes my animals. Phoebe was so precious to you. You’re sure to grieve for her, but I can sense that you are getting better, and I too feel so proud of your strength.At the moment, I have a dog that I love dearly….I can’t bear to think of losing him.

    I have friends, people I have come to love and trust…..and I have my friends from SC. They are always there, whenever I have good things to share,or if I’ve had something bad happen,they’re mainly some rather special girls, as well as a small group of guys. I know that if I needed someone to talk to,some advice,some support, they’d be there. I’m a private person, find it hard to talk about emotions , and it is difficult to tell friends how much they mean to me. So I’m telling you now……no names, but you know who you are!

    And Pol, I never knew about Rainbow Bridge, I’d a few tears when I read it but it really meant a lot to me when I read it.
    So…..Forever……..and the girls and guys who care for me, I may not often say it, but I hold you all in my heart.
    Maisie xxx

  6. msval58

    Hi forever,
    We’re not really acquainted at least here on SC, but I can fully relate to what you are saying. This has been a tough year for me in more ways than one. I, too, had to say goodbye to one of my cats, Ripple, this past July. Other things have been going on in my life as well, and I thank God for this site and its members, some of whom I now consider close friends. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, you are all a blessing in my life. Forever, we come to consider out four legged friends as members of the family, and when they leave us, the pain of that loss and the grief we experience is just as great as for our human counterparts. Phoebe is forever with you in your heart. Hugssss.

    1. foreveryoung2 Post author

      Thank you dear Marie – but at my age I don’t want to get another dog as there will never be another dog like my Phoebe.
      Take care (((((hugs))))) xox

  7. morvenna

    Oh Forever…yes……lifes a bummer sometimes…..I havent always had it easy…..mountains and valleys…..you know……but…..I am eternally grateful for my family and friends……without them I wouldn’t have been able to cope at times……so many take this for granted……and I have lost 3 wonderful dogs in my life…..such faithful creatures….they give unconditional love don’t they…..so I understand…..it’s a real grief when we lose them…..and it’s early days yet……Bless you forever…………XXXXXXX M

  8. mercury5

    hi don’t know you .but know how hard it is to lose a pet more so a mate .hope you get over your lose. and remember there are lots of dogs looking for love.

  9. pollie

    I so know how you feel hun…its bin 2 1/2 years now since i lost my boy and i still cry…anything can start me off..they are family to such as yourself and people like me…took me all that time to even think about another one and i now have the pup i have..no way will he ever replace my boy but he has given me a reason to get out there and live again…thinkin of you hun xx

  10. Blush

    Forever, Like Pollie, I too have had a love for a dog that was so very precious, and know your sadness. It’s been 10 years and the tears have pretty much gone, but my memories are as vivid as it was yesterday. We are all here for you…… blessings for calm I wish for you…. Warm Hugs, Patty xx

  11. krazykatlady

    oh fy..so sorry to hear about the loss of your fur-baby…i know how heart breaking and heart wrenching it is to go thru this…and i’m sure you both dearly loved and spoiled each other rotten..in time you will know when and if to reach out to another fur-baby…not to replace the lost one as you can never do that but to give an outlet to all the love you have in your heart ….and that fur-baby will be so lucky to have a mom like you….take the time to grieve..don’t listen to people who say such things as “snap out of it”…”it was only a dog”..etc. etc….everybody grieves in their own way and it can’t be hurried…thank you for your blog and sharing your heart with us….love and hugs,kat…

  12. missellie

    dear forever,
    So very sorry to hear of your loss. Even though we know that when we have our “four legged” children, that we will have to part with them someday, nothing can truly prepare you for that. It leaves a void inside you. Having put my horse down this past July,there is not a day that goes by that I still do not grieve for her, but now I can and do take comfort in all the wonderful memories she gave me, all the joy, that I can still carry in my heart even though she is no longer with me. I am hoping you find peace and hold onto your memories

    ellie xx

    1. foreveryoung2 Post author

      Thank you so much ellie and I am so sorry for your loss. Our animals are truly the most wonderful “people” we could have in our lives as only a pet lover knows. Peace to you too. Take care xox