At times like these, when you loose a great friend, you tend to reflect on your own life.
Do I fill my bucket list now?
Do I make amends with those who have harmed me, either verbally or physically?
What do I find in my life that is the most important part,,,is it love, money, a job, family, friends?
I find myself thinking all these things today after the passing of a friend, (Arizonaghost), that always had time to listen, to care, to love.
I hope that I will be remembered the same way he is...compassionate, caring, honest.
I find those things are what I respect in most others, and hope they do of me someday when I am gone.
Let go of the anger, feel for others, but then again, dont let people abuse you.
I am doing some deep soul searching right now, sharing thoughts I rarely share other then with a few chosen people.
I realized that may be part of my problem, fear of opening up, fear of rejection, fear of failure.
I may be older, but that doesnt mean i still dont have lessons to learn in this life, perhaps that is why I am still here.