like not waking up the next morning and that you have had enough? I go to bed every night thanking God for the day and telling Him to take me as I have had enough of this life. I have had enough of everything..happiness, sadness, richness, pleasures..everything. There is nothing else I want. I feel there is another life in another universe waiting for me. I look up to the skies and I see many galaxies.....it fascinates me!
People tell me it is wrong to wait for death..but do you know every night when you sleep you are actually not here either. You are lost in another world....not aware of yourself as you go into deep sleep. Waking up the next morning is a bonus...another day and another moment.
We live each day as if the next is coming. we fail to realise that what we have is only that moment. we plan long term, dream long term....and in the process forget to live the moment. I was given two shocks and kick starts to stop dreaming and waiting for next week or month or year to do something.Tomorrow was always there and I had things to do tomorrow. I wanted to travel, go to England, go to Kashmir.....but it was always next year.
The day I got the shock and had stenting done my doc atted on my back and said..enjoy ur life.....worries and shortcomings will always be there.....live your life!!I felt like God telling me something. I changed tht day. I live my day and we all should, do what you need to do now!!! Not afterwards!
A friend invited me on cruise....bless his soul....he was the best thing that ever happened...i enjoyed the cruise...free....on vast seas..under the stars,,,in the middle of nowhere at times. Everyone should go on a cruise..sit on the deck at night and look up at the stars....we look at ants under them. I felt I was nothing and they overwhelmed me. I would love to see the northern lights.....I am told they are a sight to behold.!! One day.....
I am going to Kashmir in May...they say it is Paradise on Earth....I orgainsed a trip for senior citizens and am taking them. I want them to see it to. many of my friends want to do things but are afraid...afraid of their children, afraid to die in another place..afraid afraid afraid...
This is one attempt to do something...wish me luck
anyone wishing to come to malaysia....I am here..come!!