Almost…..but not quite.

Ok. You’ve got me. I’ll ‘fess up. I’m still here (sort of).

When I wrote my previous post (“Goodbye, Farewell, Amen”) I was in a dark place. Nothing’s really changed. My son is still fighting for custody of his child through the courts, (COVID problems caused many delays), and I haven’t seen my precious grandson for over a year. It’s a strange situation – almost bereavement, but not quite. I am haunted by bad dreams always with the same theme – my grandson is in some form of danger but I can’t get to him to help. 

I am by nature an buoyant person. 47 years of marriage have brought many joys and many challenges, but up until now I have always been able to metaphorically pick my self up and dust myself off – but this is a problem I am really struggling with.

I still feel that for me the cost of a premium membership of this site cannot be justified (although if anybody wants to convince me otherwise I am prepared to listen). It might help if I could find a simple list of what advantages the premium membership confers. Meanwhile I will continue to dip in-and-out of the site with my non-premium account for the time being.

On the plus side, the sun is shining. Ordinarily at this time of year we would be preparing for our customary month’s holiday on the Continent, but COVID, Brexit and my wife’s declining health have conspired to put foreign travel on hold for now. 

My father (who lived to be 102), if asked how he was, would always reply “I’m still standing”. This morning, I am beginning to understand what he meant.