Life..fr a senior
I began my life in a hard way and till today am searching for answers to a million questions. I had to work hard to get to the uni…..then work hard at my marriage….work hard to educate the kids. Finally one day i had a shock….. I had a stent put in for a block! I was told I was damn lucky to have it discovered. I realised I had worked for everybody else’s happiness..I was never in the picture.
Is it worth pushing ourselves?. Is it worth my life? I love my kids and will do anything for them. I spent my entire life earning for them and left my dreams on the side. Today, I have health destroyed. I have insomnia…depression… feel alone although i have people around. I have become religious and spend my days wondering about God
I love travelling but have no friends to go with. I love male company but all have ulterior motives …… wht do I do?
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so many in the same situation honey, makes one wonder what life is all about doesn,t it? but keep your chin up, pray, at sometime things have to change for the better.hope,never give in. stay strong,xxx. hugs.
anjali, you sound like you did what a good and decent human does; be proud of yourself and take some joy in it. Never, never regret the good that you have done. Regret serves no useful purpose, but now enjoy what life has to offer. Consider the dreams that were left behind, but your feeling are very normal and we all have them and thank you for sharing them.
I am trying very hard to give myself some joy. I am proud I managed to provide for everyone. My regret..i left my dreams behind. I have done nothing I liked. It was for others. Now it is for me to change. I do not know how to be happy anymore. I have so many negative feelings within me. Not a soul asks me how I am. I am no better than the furniture around. At least it gets dusted and cleaned! I am left in the closet to rot!
I can’t remember when I was given a good hug…or a gift..or a word of encouragement….I wish I had someone to sit with me for a cup o tea and just chat….someone who will buy me a flower…someone who will come with me on a holiday and not demand sex….
I have become so religious….only God knows my fears
Anjali, i know you say you suffer from depression, and you sound as if you are in a deep one at the moment, maybe a medication review might help, you did as a lot of us have done, worked for your family to give them a good life and make them independent, now is your time, maybe consider a singles holiday, dosen’t have to be with a man, women are brill company too,look towards voluntary work, maybe visiting people in their homes, you were very lucky regarding your health,and you are still well enough to travel, so that in itself is a bonus, when we choose to get married and have a family they automatically come first, your life is precious, get out there and live it, things wont come to you, you go to them…….Take care. xx
Anjali, l have not chatted with you before, but that might change if we chat in the lobby. What l do know is this, things are never so bad that they can’t get worse. Their are some lovely people here who only seek company and chat, you are in the right place here, people genuinely do care, kinda rare l think. In my thoughts. G T G
Thank you so much for the replies. here in Malaysia I find no one to talk to. The men I meet bore me or have hidden objectives and out to fleece women. I rather not get hurt. yes..social service…I do and am still working and that keeps me occupied. I too think I am suffering from depression but it is difficult to get medical help.I am trying ..thank you.
Singles holiday….go on a holiday myself…..that is an idea. problem is …can I be able to? To add to my problems…I do have a husband but he does not talk to me or discuss anything with me. Can you imagine living under the same roof and am a prisoner!!!! I have not had a day where I could say i am happy. But i create things to get some. I believe God is there and he has helped me so far. I sometimes wish I had just good friends…..
I once had a good male friend from the UK. he was God sent. I could talk to him and he pampered me although we were continents apart. we chated everyday and he made me laugh. But he passed on.Now I have no one to talk to. My son was in the uk for two years and was depressed ..unable to take the cold and the environment. He helped me by sending him clothes, food etc. He was my angel. that assured me that God is around and he will look after me. How else can I explain my survival so far. Nothing moves without Him and thus it is similar with me.
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Anjali,
I too suffer from depression but praise God I have found good a good medication that works well for me. I have a wonderful counselor I talk to when needed and I have my sisters in Christ at my church who are always available when in turmoil. Talk with your pastor or find other women in your church.
Is your husband a Christian? Mine wasn’t and as I grew in the Lord the farther apart we grew…after 31 years of marriage we finally divorced.
Senior Chat is a great place to come and just enjoy….we all have our issues and are willing to listen to others. Look at the ‘groups’ that are available on here and join some…they cover a wide range of topics.
I will keep you in my prayers.