Choices Today and Choices Tomorrow

Choices today and choices tomorrow.. it is always easier for me to take the path I have been on before… to go down the roads I know, avoiding change. I think sometimes as we get older we are torn in two directions… safety and security and a wish for some of the excitement and action of our younger days. The trick is to find a middle ground that offers both….
I certainly cannot do some of the things I did when I was younger… and probably would not make that choice if I actually could do them…. I remember hiking on a cliff called Devil’s slide, near San Francisco…. absolutely so dangerous and foolhardy…. the wind was whipping off the ocean so strongly it pinned me to the cliff at times and threatened to blow me off the side of the slide at other times. The slide was so rocky and unstable that it was hard to find footing that you could count on. And the fall, should it have happened, would be instantly fatal… the kind of fall you see in movies that ends in rocks and ocean a long long way down. I was following my man and his dream of hiking there, despite the many signs prohibiting and warning against it. I was in my twenties… this man died in a motorcycle accident forty years ago…. he was kind of reckless and lovely…. but his death changed my life. I was terrified during this hike … and realized that maybe I was not cut out for testing my limits in this way. Some part of it was definitely exhilarating.. in retrospect. I have not thought about this for a long time and have to smile at the girl I was then… she is still alive inside me 🙂 But those weren’t “the days”… I think these are “the days”….

I hope everyone has a good day and has days like this that they made it through… and can smile as they remember.